Ich bin glücklich, dass es Freitag ist!

Guten Tag everyone!

Like my subject says, I'm SO happy it's Friday! Friday is always the busiest day of the week for me, but it's also the best. It seems kind of funny that it's the best because most people look forward to no work the next day and having a relaxing weekend. I don't get a relaxing weekend or have it off really, but I still look forward to it anyway. I'm going to be stoked when I actually have days off in the U.S., if my job(s) are scheduled that day, we'll see.

Lately I've been thinking about how much harder things are going to be when I get home. As much as I'm looking forward to going home, I'm dreading it just as much. I'm really looking forward to being with my friends and being back in an English speaking country, but I'll still feel alone. When I moved here my mom already told me that I wasn't allowed to come back to "her house" so I've been prepared for this for almost a year now. My Dad has asked me to come and live with him, but I don't think that's a good idea. He's having a hard time letting go and dealing with me making my own decisions. The Army made him into a control freak so he HATES not having a say in what I want to do. Living with him would only make that worse and I can see it turning into a "my way or the highway" situation and I really don't want that. I've been feeling a little bitter about some of my friends who have it so easy. It really just is jealousy though. One of them has their parents house so he has a place to stay since they moved to VA, one gets to stay home for free, not work and just go to school, one has an apartment her parents pay for and a new car with no job. Blah! I'm going to bust my butt just to make it for the first year. I have been looking into grants and I think I can apply for most of them, and that will help ALOT (thanks to Liberal Politicians!) I've always been a pessimist though so maybe I'm just being down and expecting all the worst things to happen. I'm not afraid of the hard work that's coming my way. I'm really thankful for all the support my friends are giving me and hopefully that will be enough to get me through. That sounds so melodramatic! I guess everyone gets nervous when they take the next step of life.

I'm not sure what's planned for the weekend. I know that a teacher at Charlotte's preschool is getting married tomorrow so they're going to that. I'm not sure if I'm going, I kind of doubt it since I have nothing to wear. I want to talk them into going to Neuschwanstein soon though. It sucks I got stuck with the family who does NO traveling haha. It's only a 3 hour drive away, if we got up early in the morning we could do it easily. I'm planning on taking Steve when he comes to visit in September. I really want to make a trip to Berlin too, but we'll see.

Anyway, I hope you guys have a great weekend!

Jess

P.S. Here is a cute website I found of dachshunds! I want an army of them!

Adorable Dachshunds!!!